15.11.09

Blush about another side of me.


I've found out about another side of me not long ago.


The side that i dont want to face or admit since it's totally against my job nature.

For this, i felt embrassed about myself.


I was struggling, try to find a way get rid of the side, still i'll have to disappoint myself. It very hard to get rid of FEAR.


Fear made me shrink , made me hide myself from everyone else. Who should i turn to?


I Guess I'll have to go for it on my own now.


Hope i can beat it soon~


13.11.09

Long Time no Post.


As i've started another new page of my life , i preferred to stay here for my news publication.


I've got someone with me who care about me all the time. so as the matter of fact i'm crazy about this man and perfectly "stick" or "stuck" with him.


At this point , i'll try to live as happy as i could be cus i dont want to waste any bits of these precious moments. I always scare to lose everything as it happened to be "too good" and try to believe this all can last.


Hope i'm right and dont have to shift this time~


20.2.09

once and again!

finally...

I'm back to this blog....the lastest issue was ages ago when i was still having my HKPFC o-day lu...


Now, i'm really a vivid one. If you as wht it's like to be me, i'll ans "twisting"*

y would i say sth like that? hmm, it's like i'm not saying it's a bad time now or anything but it seems can tell how exactly how i feel lately.


many things happened during these days...almost a year, i've grown up more than i can imagine and the more authorities i've gain and more resopsibilities and pressure came along with them. sometime it makes u suffocate, sometime it gives u thrills. I felt xtremely complicated ....mixed up....


though it's hard but the show must go on. thanks to those who taught me without expect things in return^^


thanks to those who came and support me during the most proud moments in life.


last but not least...I'm really happy for Ko-B..my lovely gpmate. wish her all the best in the future with her hubby and baby~ i'll always support you and give a helping hand whenever u need me la ;)

4.7.08

MY FIRST FORCE O. DAY

昨天,是我7月7日前再接觸WCH的日子...
是我人生其中一個很重要的日子,O-DAY^^
一入去嗰時,已經好有壓迫感了.其中一隊0既呀 "DUM" 已在搵人開薺了=.=”
而 "SIT ATTENTION" 就係我地第一個要學的COMMAND 了!
我地30個同學仔整日都在超熱(重要著住老西)同亂的情況下過呢日...試3,UNIFORMS,BOOT,MARCHING SHOES,CAP,BELT...跟住衝去拎NOTES,食飯,聽最易令同學們釣魚的MPF(S)..超過原定1700走人0既PLAN,我地重要番COMMON RM CON'D 我地0既班會MEETING!到左1930先走得^^”
開始傾野嗰時,我地班都幾散,可能大家仲未習慣啦,仲要多點時間去適應,希望可以快啲團結,齊上齊落,一齊passing out啦!!!!

2.7.08

又愛又恨?!




幾個月之前, 我將開左幾年0既 blog shut down 左....


嗰陣時諗...個blog有太多唔開心0既回憶啦,shut down佢自己就唔洗"眼冤"了.


証明自己真係仲幼稚, 嗰啲發生左0既又點會可以咁個button就唔見左呢?!


回憶,已成過去,亦唔到你選擇佢0既存在與否. 有開心/唔開心 ; 有得意/失意 ___


現在發覺, 刪去唔開心0既回憶呢個做法絕對唔係最有效令自己活得更快樂的方法....


其實最值得高興的係,點樣從失意中在站起來,堅強咁面對同克服佢,反思自己,仲要告誡自己唔好再犯同一錯誤.


至於傷害過自己0既人會有咩下塲,仲會唔會"僧"佢,以經唔在重要啦, "僧"佢只會令自己更痛苦,放且對方又唔會感受到的,佢地一般都已經將自己的生死至諸道外了,何苦令自己辛苦呢.


所以,我更覺得要努力,珍惜現在!! 為理想同目標奮鬥!!!


人跌過就會大,我都會一樣!!!!! [ 整裝待發, 迎接新挑戰 ] fighting!


30.6.08

複.雜



愈近7號, 個心跳得愈勁 S=.=S


買野買到癲晒...將一個有半個人咁高0既紅白藍,只係裝滿一半,就已經拉唔"yuk"啦!!


仲要加埋個髮型同套"老西"...再拎住佢...簡直係絕配^^"


呢排成日落雨...唔知入camp之後會變非洲雞定變落湯雞??!....


啲時間眨下眼就過...仲未見得晒啲朋友仔呢...其實佢地都各有各忙,就到時間出來已經算好了,再見番佢地,雖然感覺唔同左但總好過無聯絡啦...哈哈"


...之後要適應同改變0既野會有好多,唔知我地呢斑人0既 gethering仲有幾次?


快要away屋企差不多7個月,以前日日都係番屋企就嫌悶,以家就黎無得日日番,唔知會有咩感覺呢??




28.6.08

about 喪買...

原來入去之前有咁多野要預備....要喪洗錢 =.="

就連見老朋友時,吃飯都有"肋住"0既感覺 X_X!

見佢地真係幾難...好不容易先約到, 仲比朋友仔講中..好似有咩"大劑野"0既前夕,要咁急見晒,哈哈~


其實要帶0既野唔算好多,但可以係過份瑣碎! 仲要整晒CHECK LISTS 都仲好似有野漏咁...

要一樣樣咁買,不知不覺用左都唔少$$的... 响入面仲要一直比'''''''''''''''''@.@

由細到大都無試過"FING"錢的....多數都係薺睇唔捨得買, 最"HO"都係買第一條LEVI'S 同比錢上COURSE咋...

26/6同WA-WA ATE DINNER....要幫佢PRAY,應該無大礙的。。。

今日,我的準同學仔sent左張"機部"的剪髮準則圖比我欣賞,真係超短,太男人啦V。V"

我要忍耐!!!要有成績就要付出,要加油呀!!! 我要 PASSING OUT!!! ^0^